Guilty Prayers, we all pray them.  How do we work through life’s crises?  What happens if we do not?  Guilty Prayers takes a look at guilt, bitterness, fear, emotional pain, self-blame, depression, lost love, forgiveness, prayers, getting to know God, and judging.  All of these emotions are detrimental to us mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually if not acknowledged and dealt with. 

Guilty Prayers was penned over thirty years ago.  It started out as an article for publication with a Christian magazine.  But as life often does, it threw me a curve.  The story was packed away for a move as I transitioned from one community to another.  Three moves and thirty-two years later, it was found in the bottom of a file cabinet drawer.

As I have matured, so has Guilty Prayers.  You will find a common theme throughout this book.  The first lesson is to pay attention to what you are thinking.  We are what we think and we manifest into our lives what we think.  If you think, “I am poor,” then so you shall be.

The second lesson you will find in this book is to know yourself.  Until you know who you truly are, you will not be able to have a meaningful and deep relationship with your Creator or with anyone else.  It is scary to take a look at the dark shadow side of our emotions.  It is deep within these shadows that we do not want to look because we do not want to admit that we have this dark side.

It is by no chance or oversight that Guilt Prayers has thirteen chapters.  The number thirteen in Angle numbers represents a message from your angels that some upheavals may take place in your life.  This is just what happened to me.  

http://angelsarchangelsascendedmasters.blogspot.com.au/2014/10/channelling-messages-from-angels.html

August 4,2017, I was run over by a semi truck.  My car was totaled and I received a concussion causing a headache that has been with me every day since the accident, which at this time has been a year.  I was not able to return to my nursing career because of the headache and occasional brain fog.  I lost a vital part of who I am that day.  Nursing was not a job or career for me, but a passion and my mission in serving people.

Angel number thirteen also means, that the upheaval can be a blessing in disguise.  That is certainly true in my case.  Spirit has been nudging me all these years to write articles and books that will help people and bless their lives.  In past years, I have been published in magazines and papers, however, it was only occasionally that I wrote.  This is not what Creator God wanted from me.

Angel number thirteen is also a message that my angels and ascended masters are guiding me and helping me along my life’s journey. I know this to be try for me.  My needs have always been met by my angels and Creator.  I am now living my Divine purpose and helping people in a different way.  I am following my Divine path.

I will take sections from my upcoming book for discussion in this Spirituality section.  We will explore what happens to us spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically when we do not deal with emotions that are overwhelming to us.

Let’s begin the journey.

“God, why won’t she die?  I can’t take this anymore!  Don’t you care whether or not she hurts, can’t you hear her screaming out in pain? God, if you are not going to heal her, then let her die, or do you like seeing her suffer like this?”

Guilty Prayers, we all pray them.  What causes the conflict in our prayer life?  Do we become a sinner when we utter prayers of strife?

We come to a crossroads and wonder how should we pray?  A wife, husband, child, or someone we hold dear becomes terminally ill, or fate deals a cruel blow and someone is hurt beyond human repair.  Our hearts are torn in crushing anguish and we do not know how to pray.  Do we pray that they will be spared from this horrible suffering?  Do we pray for prolonged life?  What are we supposed to pray and how do we pray?

We will continue in the next posting.